"Lina, you totally just crossed the line!" Recently, I have been crossing the line which does not seem to be approved by anyone. Though I may only do it out of jest, I seem to always be repressed by my line- shall we say "cross-age." Many of these things are "inappropriate" and possibly "vulgar" and yet these blatant warning signs do not deter me from my goal, a possible laugh. But little do we know. . .
Though it may seem that I say an "over the line" joke to hear a laugh or two, if you think about it, it is much more than that. Lines surround everything. setting up barriers and making sure to keep everything inside, in, and everything outside, out. Sometimes it's ok to break the barriers. "Don't fit the mold, make your own." That's what I always say. And yet there are plenty of times when I am thankful or wishful for barriers. Barriers though they can be restrictive, prevent confusion and chaos. When there are barriers you know what's right and what's wrong, but when there are none or they are "unclear" another game goes into play. Suddenly confusion hits the players and greed or jealousy rids the team. No one is civil anymore and you world is thrown into chaos. Confused, you look around for that line you so recently crossed, and yet. . .it's gone.
What do you do now? Your recent bravery in crossing the line has turned to fear and you're beginning to question what the point was. If your possible endpoint is fear within chaos, why would you ever cross the line in the first place? Yet your fear of possible chaos is quickly balanced with the possible greatness, bravery, or reward.
Alright line, what the fuck? Why are you there? Are you there to be crossed? Or shall I obey your laws to keep my sanity? It's confusing and there isn't an answer. All you can do is live, whether safely within the lines, constantly crossing them, or going back and forth between the two. I guess all you can gather from this stream of consciousness is that life is meant to be ambiguous. So it's ok to be confused. It's ok to be stressed. It's ok to be done with life. But just remember, it's meant to be that way. So relax. Take a breath. And take the next step.
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umm, i dont know... i personaly find crossing the line a great thing, and my slight seeming shock or shame, is mearly proudness in ur marvelous abilities in line crossing, yet staying classy....
I said this before, but I think that you should write a self help book. All your entries end with morals or tips. haha Lina the therapist...
hmm...inspired by our talks in PA board?
oooh i like this very nice!!!
ok dude, you put lines there mentaly, its turely a thing that is a menatl block. mean look at me i live over the line and do i care at all....no, lines are what you make them.
did that make anysense?
the thing is, lines aren't defined. I mean, who decides where the lines are anyway? over there -- no wait! over THERE. that's the line.... yeah, you just crossed it. you didn't see it? bummer, man.
The point is, make your own lines; cross them or don't; color outside them; dance on them; do whatever the hell you want with them, because nobody else can see the same lines anyway.
HOLYCRAP!!! today, i saw THE line! it was little and pink, right by the race machine. ellie crossed it...
ps. gabe, what does BAAAAH mean?
Hannah, I totally agree with what you said. You can cross other people's lines and they might be cheesed, but how the hell were you supposed to know? ...and now I insert everything that you said before...
is it like bah, humbug? like from rent??? ooh yay broadway moment...
"Lines" are so funny because they can so often narrow and expand throughout your life. I find that with each passing day the lines in my life become increasingly blurred, and it is, as you say, endlessly confusing and stressful. But it's also sort of thrilling as the barriers become lifted and the world suddenly seems so large and open to possibilities. Then there are those lines you never knew existed until you or someone around you, crosses them. It all just boggles the mind. I really like this post!! Keep up the good work love!
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