Do you ever have a moment where you stop whatever you're doing and step outside of yourself? Whether it's a good or bad moment, I am sure that you've done it. Within the past few weeks I have done this repeatedly. I would suddenly stop listening to the story that was being told or the game that was being played; and just take in the moment. What it felt to be with my friends, happy.
I guess since I have become a senior, I have made it my job to absorb every feeling I come upon. Whether it's the rush of adrenalin before you tackle someone, or the warmth you feel when your given a true hug, or even a wet kiss or two. I have been so busy absorbing every moment lately, slowly documenting life, I have lost sight of the negatives. I have reached a state of unexplainable happiness that I have only felt once in my life and it was with four people in a crowded field of worshipers. And I know that this feeling only brings two phrases to your lips. You try to say these phrases every second. You stress them as much as you can with "No, I really mean it" or "I'm completely serious" but some how the people don't realize your sincerity until it comes to the end. So it's here where I say what I've been trying to tell all of you, and hope that you take in the next moment you feel these small words running to you're lips, begging to be screamed.
Thank you so much for all you have done. I love you.
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can i say that was awesome...
and that i know how u that feeling where people cant understand you sencerity, its on a diffrent level...
once again, great stuff
so if this says i commented at 6 am, don't be confused. this is how i spend my mornings (coffee in hand). i don't really think this applied to me or anything, but just know that i understand the feeling of something coming to a close, feeling the end slowly approach, and everyone else seems to be going at the same fast pace and you just want to be telling everyone how great it is that you're all there together, being happy, or being there when it's sad, and hugging when it's stressful, and bobbing your heads in a choreographed routine...but you want everyone to GET IT. to understand, because you're so friggin serious. so even if i'm not the person who you wanted to understand this, just know that i get it, although not exactly, seeing as how i still have three more years ahead of me. if you ever need a hug, you know where to find me...sitting five feet away from you on the floor of the art cave (most likely because of some incident involving spinny chairs and kalila).
p.s. this nearly made me cry. and this is really like crying because i have tear duct problems I AM CONVINCED OF IT!
lina...lina...lina...lina...i just need you to know something
i love you so much
you have taught me so much and i feel like you and i have gotten so close over the past couple months...am i imagining this? well i hope not because lately youve been there when i've needed someone to just get it...ya know?
and when i need a real hug or even a makout session during 5th and 6th...wait what?
anyways so thats what i needed you to know...that um i love you more than i could ever express in words or even my famous and bizzaar iz gestures haha but anyways so yeah thats what i needed to say
LOVE YOU BABY!
-iz
Lina, even though I've only known you for a short time, I've figured out that you're an awesome person and you really care about your friends and just life in general. You guys have helped me find another side of myself that I wouldn't have discovered if I hadn't been exposed to it through you!
I LOVE YOU LINA!!!!!!!!!!
awww Lina! This is so beautiful! It brought back such happy memories of senior year. Don't ever lose that ability to slow time, to cherish every moment, every hug, every love for the precious gift that it is. It helps make you the phenomenal person that you are. *hugs*
I'm listening to Rebecca St. James and remembering that feeling. It is a high. An unexplicable high. And it comes not from elation, but from feeling... full.
When you are so full of pure, beautiful love that you don't know whether to yell at the top of your lungs how beautiful the world is or to let the tears leak out of the corners of your eyes. You don't know whether to hug everyone around you or to belt "All For You" at the top of your lungs. You grab the strangers hand next to you and let go...
oh, Lina. I miss that feeling.
I love my friends, I really do. But this... this is something else. And I wish with all of my heart that all of them knew that feeling.
Because, as you can attest, there is nothing else like it.
Nothing.
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